I am a heavy smoker and hate it… haven’t smoked today though!
May 22nd, 2008
I’m a heavy smoker and I hate it, I’ve enjoyed smoking for many years but I hate the fact that I do it and even more so now that I have kids.
Smoking is a crap habit, it wastes my money, it ruins my health and it jeapordises the future of my family.
I have had relatives die of cancer, I have a history of high blood pressure and heart related bad stuff in my family… is it worth tempting fate?
I just went onto google to go and have a look at images of lung cancer and nearly puked up, it is a very scary thought to die a horrible painful death, it’s a worse thought for my wife and kids to have to watch that.
For years I’ve had a love affair with smoking, it has been my crutch and also my burden, it’s given me space to think and be creative but what benefit is creativity at the expense of death. Seems to me that there’s actually no point if you look at it honestly…
My three year old daughter is shit scared of the fact that I smoke and that it could kill me, I’m scared that it could kill me, I’m also scared of the fact that if I stop smoking I could die of lung cancer anyway so why bother.
Today I haven’t smoked, hearing my daughter on the phone asking if I had been smoking is a potent thing, I don’t want to let her down, Caroline hasn’t smoked since she got pregnant and she also nags me on a day to day basis.
It’s time for it to stop. I know I have uttered words to do with stopping before, I just hope that this time I manage to keep it going…
Don’t watch this video if you are of weak stomach but if you smoke, time to wake up and smell the coffee, we are not just killing ourselves but the people around us to…