The world is a crazy place, fast moving, high intensity, non stop action for all of us but do any of you actually know what is going on? I have been working away from home for the last 2 weeks and have had a little time to step back and take a look at the chaos that ensues around me, and chaos it is… especially in the big smoke that is London.

Blistering heat, commuting and agency life are some of the things that I have had to deal with on a day to day basis which is the complete opposite from normal. For the last 2 years I have sat in the cave that is my office, devising my plans for world domination and trying to make a bit of cold hard cash but now I am out in the open and taking deep breaths of life.

Fat men on motorcycles, pushers crying “BUY WEED”, hostile beggars, tens of thousands of flip flops, sweaty undergrounds full of nobody talking. A far cry from my cave!

So what is going on? I read 3 papers a day just now, I think they hand them out for free just to try and switch us on to things we don’t really care about, or are they trying to tune us into what they want us to think? A potent question. I like the concept in the film Pi where patterns can be found anywhere and that there is order to chaos, it’s all in the numbers.

The cool thing about the film is all the religious connotations when a Jewish mathematician gets involved as he is also looking for answers through numerology and number sequences in The Torah. It ties in with a book I read a long time ago called The Bible Code which is essentially all about the original Hebrew text version of the Bible being like a giant word search that contains everything that has been, is and could be.

I am not a very religious man but have enjoyed a good few conversations about the chaos that is life and where we are from, where we are going, what’s going on…

Ever since getting Sky HD, I have been watching loads of programs about the physical aspects of biblical topics, real life tie ins with what I have been told over the years. I find it fascinating to see evidence to substantiate these stories of great things, conquests, sacrifice and mystery.

I had a conversation the other day about all of this and Paulo put it in one of the most amazing ways I have ever heard. He placed a big box of wine on the table in between us and said “This is religion”. At first I thought he was taking the piss but then he went on to say that no matter which way it is looked at, nobody can ever have exactly the same perspective of it. Even when the box was turned so that I was looking at what he had been looking at and he vice versa, there was still no way that we were seeing what the other had seen. Such a simple but clear way of putting it.

We talked about the universe working on different frequencies and that we are just antennae picking up signals, we talked about M-Theory and Multiverses, I played devils advocate and brought up aliens… A really enjoyable and deep conversation, the type of conversation that I miss having now that I work so much and don’t really get out.

So, the rat race is on, I don’t think any of us really know what is going on, we all struggle day to day to get by, some of us believe what we are told, some of us think outside the box, some of us give up and kill ourselves, most of us strive for something, some of us couldn’t care less.

For me, I have a family to look after now, my life got difficult but having a family made it a lot more simple, I have focus, I have written before about maintaining focus which is another topic but it does cut out the crap in your life and allows you to just get on with it.

Unfortunately I consider myself to think outside the box, so although I think I know what is going on, I know I am probably wrong and that there is so much more out there to discover…

I’ll keep you informed should I find any answers but until then, if you think you know what is going on then please do share…